++ IN SEATTLE NOW...haven't started work yet. been here two days. getting antsy to start. feel like i should have some sense of purpose...not having a job and not being in school makes it hard. this wasn't even the point of why i started writing.
SO...SEATTLE. 3-0 no rain versus rain. although it was cloudy all day yesterday. oh yeah...

SINGLE MALE FRIENDS of mine, if you like blondes who are not model skinny, but are still thin, then check out idaho. you'll like it there. if you like burnettes, then come visit me in seattle. i didn't check out the guys...so SINGLE FEMALE FRIENDS of mine, sorry. i don't have the scoop.

PEOPLE IN SEATTLE have a sort of weathered look to them. oh yeah and there are an amazing amount of asians here...much more so than all the other places in the united states i have been to. its still a bit odd. to see so many of...me. except they aren't me. well if you know me, you should know what i mean. oh yeah, and terriyaki restaurants. absurd amount of them too.

FOR SEATTLE to be so 'advnaced' in being and building green/sustainable/conservationalist, their public transportation system sucks. on another note they have no ills with mass-consumerism. b-ee r-ock, you might die here in this land of starbucks on every half block. i think there might actually be more starbucks coffeeshops than grocery stores in seattle. if you count all the other ones in addition, pete's coffeeshop, seattle's best, plus all the independent little shops who sell their own brand of coffee. honestly, the coffeeshops rival the asian restaurants.

UNUSUAL AMOUNT of gay couples here too...or maybe its just the placesi have been to. hmm. yeah, just a coincidence i'm positive.

I STILL FEEL WEIRD going into my place when the elementary school is still i nsession...so i wait out in my car for them to leave. i'm sure i'll get over it. i feel like alittle kid hiding from the boogie-monster. i need to grow up about this. but only this, because i've decided i am going to be a kid for the rest of my life. it'll be easier this way. i'm sure my parents and my friends will understand. its not all that hard to understand my rationale. i mean i got it...

ANOTHER DAY...ANOTHER ADVENTURE... ++

++ Scuzzyuc (3:09:06 AM): i'm actually the only person i know of right now in seattle...and its kind of lonely...i've done the whole co-op thing by myself before, but this just feels different. i blame it on the funk. haha.
samee_sheikh@mac.com (3:10:03 AM): chin up old chap... heatheree will be out there soon..

i think i like that phrase. it's a 'brit-ish' thing. ++

++ SECOND DAY in seattle and i feel like i have been here for a long time. i'm not sure why. i have also been out of it the entire day. kind of in a daze. its a really wierd feeling. its kind of lonely being in a city by yourself, when you have no one to talk to. i need to finish my taxes. this entry is all about random thoughts all at once. i went to target today. saw a cart-ilator. basically an escalator, except its for shopping carts. its the first one i've seen, although i've heard all about them. got my grades today, kind of disappointed in them, but then again i don't really care, because i studied what i wanted to study, even if the professors didn't actually know how to help me. i'm both disappointed with them and upset all at the same time and then the third side of me says i don't care. so i'm not sure how i feel. on request of t-oo c-ocky i have decided to take a poll in rainy days versus non-rainy days for my stay in seattle for the next six months. the new score is rain-0, non-rain-2. t-oo c-ocky, you're losing. i'm right so far.

word of the day: addle ++

++ A FEW DAYS LATE because i didn't have internet access. but i wrote them on my computer and saved them. and now i'm going to post them...
oh yeah. mom and i made it to seattle today. it rained more or less the entire day today, until we got to seattle. so the score is, days in seattle-1. rainy days in seattle-0.

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03-25-2003
WHEN YOU ARE IN THE CAR on a cross-country trip, you get to listen to the radio…a lot! so…i was listening to the radio. and they started talking about rules of engagement in war. i suppose i’m just as critical about this as i was yesterday about the laws of war. don’t get me wrong, i am definitely NOT for this war. i guess i’m just not a big fan of people dieing. but honestly, if you do choose to go to war, what makes you think there are rules or laws which should be upheld? i know some things should be sacred for the protection of civilians, such as surrender and the white flag. but…yeah i don’t feel like talking about this anymore. you get the idea.

oh yeah, going back to yesterdays post about war being a game for presidents and generals. i heard on the radio today they called it a “theater of war”. you see, its so much of a game, they give terms such as theater, rules, laws, cinema…of war. It’s a big game to these people. i don’t get it. why do we send people out to kill people?

i also heard on the radio that a 747 costs approximately $70,000 to fill it up with gas. i’m not quite sure what kind of gas they use or how many gallons of gas it takes, but geesh, that’s a lot of money to fly. i guess i can see why it costs so much for a plane ticket.

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03-24-2003
LISTENING TO THE RADIO today about the war in iraq and i heard something about laws of war. when did war acquire laws? who enforces these laws? is there a handbook or a rulebook i can check out at the library? who publishes and checks these rules for errors? why do i feel these rules are total bs made up by some wacko playing a game of risk and decided it would be best if we applied these rules to real life? its sort of like sim city or the sims or any of those simulation games, except we are using real life human beings, our friends and family, brothers and sisters, sons and daughters, fathers and mothers, except hitting control-alt-delete or accessing the back-up file won’t garner their lives back.

DAY THREE was a touch rough at first on the road. mom drove at first from denver to cheyenne, wyoming and it was snowy, slushy, and wet. i was asleep. she got tired after that so i took over and drove the last 6 hours. of course as soon as i took over it cleared up and was sunny and blue skies for the rest of the way. tonight salt lake city and in theory tomorrow its seattle, but we’ll see how long it is until we both get tired.

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03-23-2003
FIRST TWO on the road have been fine. nothing major. just the usual quick first day. the second day stop in hayes, kansas. the dodging of the tumbleweed. beautiful denver. and tomorrow its off to idaho. woohoo. ++

++ I APPARENTLY am online too early to get im's. ha. go figure, i get online at midnight and i can't fight them off. i get online at 10pm and apparently its too early. people must be sleeping, taking a nap, and getting ready for either 1. their big night out on the town, 2. packing for their big 6 months...out on the town or 3. their big night...on IM (which obviously doesn't begin until after midnight.)

recent fortune cookie fortunes (ha. right.):
"a financial investment will yield returns beyond your hopes." -- like the lottery?
"you will always be surrounded by true friends." -- yeah, unless you are 3000 miles away from your true friends.
"everything will now come your way." -- seattle here i come.
"now is the time to try something new." -- i know, how about a flight across the u.s., instead of driving it for the 7th time.
"don't lose sight of what you want." -- I want a feast. I WANT A BEAN FEAST. CREAM BUNS AND DONUTS AND FRUITCAKE WITH NO NUTS. SO GOOD YOU COULD GO NUTS. I WANT A BALL. I WANT A PARTY. PINK MACAROONS AND A MILLION BALLOONS. AND PERFORMING BABOONS AND-- GIVE IT TO ME. I WANT THE WORLD. I WANT THE WHOLE WORLD. I WANT TO LOCK IT ALL UP IN MY POCKET. IT'S MY BAR OF CHOCOLATE. GIVE IT TO ME NOW. I WANT TODAY. I WANT TOMORROW. I WANT TO WEAR 'EM LIKE BRAIDS IN MY HAIR. AND I DON'T WANT TO SHARE 'EM. I WANT A PARTY WITH ROOMFULS OF LAUGHTERS. TEN THOUSAND TONS OF ICE CREAM. AND IF I DON'T GET THE THINGS I AM AFTER. I'M GOING TO SCREAM. I WANT THE WORKS. I WANT THE WHOLE WORKS. PRESENTS AND PRIZES AND SWEETS AND SURPRISES. OF ALL SHAPES AND SIZES AND NOW! DON'T CARE HOW. I WANT IT NOW. DON'T CARE HOW. I WANT IT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW.

(yeah, don't ask.) ++

++ went GOLFING today with m-aybe s-apphic and a-fter g-anja. i won. i am the big winner. with a big score of 93. on another note, cincy's out in the basketball tournament. and i have to pack so that i can be checked out of here by 2.00pm tomorrow and then its home for a half day and then off to seattle on saturday! ++

++ Scuzzyuc (1:11:21 AM): ttyl.
.....AdelaideDawn (1:11:22 AM): goofnight
.....Scuzzyuc (1:11:29 AM): yes. goofnight ++

++ WAR IN IRAQ. scary. how will this effect me? are we doing the right thing? ++

++ FINAL CRITS for studio were this past monday. final thoughts: when sustainability is involved or integrated into a design project, the stigmas attached to the "buzz" topic drive the feedback and the discussion from the critics. it dominates the design crit. which is frustrating when you spend a lot of time on other more pertinent aspects of the design such as techtonics and construction of the design. you know, the stuff which actually make it stand up. which by the way is not the green roof or the grasscrete parking lot. no, its definately the details in the construction which hold up a building. so when we have a tech crit or a final crit and we have been spending 6 weeks on it, well lets talk about that.

when studio professors ask you a question during the crit, do the already know the answer or rather they already know what they are looking for. its a sick game where if you don't say the "correct" answer, then you get a bad grade or negative feedback. its kind of like playing simon says, except simon never actually says and when you don't do what simon was thinking, then you are out of the game.

there is a definate differenceee in how undergraduate and graduate crits are posed. undergraduated being much more speaking by professors, almost another excuse for them to hear themselves talk or lecture, while graduate presentations hinge more on discussion and cross-dialogue between studenst and professors. ... or maybe hank just likes to hear himself talk.

oh yeah and go to boston on the weekend of july 4th. its r.gill's birthday and she wants visitors. ++

++ DANG IT, so i just typed up a 10 minute post and it timed out on me. and now i don't feel like typing it all up again. piss.

total IM's today: 4. (one was my girlfriend. one was from a 'friend' who was asking me for information about someone else. one was asking why i write "revealing" stuff about my 'friends' and if i think they read it. and one was from a 'friend' who was commenting another 'h.s. friend's' eventual engagement.) rarely do people IM me just to say hello. its always a question about something else. ha. i sound pretty selfish and whiny right now. go figure.

cincy tied for the worst record of all the teams to get invited to the ncaa tourney and we got an 8 seed? wow. ++

++ http://www.uc.edu/news/NR.asp?id=322. i'm famous. ++

++ WOOHOO. finally finished the 3000 word paper on my tentative and probably void (because it will change) thesis proposal. studio on monday. chinese on tuesday. and house and home case study on tuseday. packing wednesday, thursday, friday, and then off to seattle for 6 months. look out co-op, here i come. ++

++ WORD COUNT in microsoft word is so disheartening. i swear i type for an hour and hit word count and it says 1521. i type for another hour and it says 1603. i just typed for an hour and i only got 82 words! are you serious! thats an average of 1.37 words a minutes. i know i'm that slow of a typer. and i know i think a little slow when it come to writing papers, but that is ridiculous. i've already just now typed up 89 words in just under 5 minutes and it would have been 90 if i would have said "i have" instead of abbreviating it. and now i've typed up an additional 31 words in 2 minutes. this paper i'm writing is either pathetic or (and) sucky.

this lady is full of shit. she obviously never had to write a 3000 word paper on her unkown thesis topic. ++

++ 3.33am. this is definately the earliest i have been up all quarter. my goodness its early. i know people who haven't gone to bed yet from yesterday! just because you care. this day in history back in the age of 1912, the girl scouts were formed. hmmmm...girl scout cookies. oh yeah. check out samee's website. guh. 3000 word paper. shoot me. ++

++ PEOPLE QUESTION MY WORD. why? what good does it do them to question what i say? is that they don't believe me? or are they testing me? on a side note i bargained for a raise in my wage and i got an extra $0.75, which doesn't sound like much, but i did a little math and that turns out to about a difference of $540, and thats after taxes. thats a lot of money. two months rent. enough money to drive to and from seattle to dayton-twice. almost enough money to fly to taiwan. anyway. i should be more grateful than i am. ++

++ "ACCORDING TO MOST STUDIES, people's number one fear is public speaking. Number two is death. Death is number two. Does that seem right? That means to the average person, if you have to go to a funeral, you're better off in the casket than doing the eulogy." - Jerry Seinfeld. if i were to add number three, it would have to be completing all of my school projects and papers on time. poo on school. yay for seattle!++

++ damn, EVEN MICKEY MOUSE is being fired. so much for the happiest place on earth. ++

well i just joined the.crowd.and.me and feel a bit like jay's new stalker but this actually seems pretty cool

++ I'M ALWAYS RIGHT. but i'm afraid this time i'm not sure if i am. the world holds its breath and gasps. the silence roars. you can hear the gears in the clock grind as the seconds tick. what happens if i'm wrong? ++

++ I SLEPT for 30 hours (with an hour break) in the past two days. i thought i was dying, but once again my intuition proved me wrong. ++