Saturday, January 31, 2004


++ FROM A FRIEND in beavercreek..
"I GOT INTO VET SCHOOL AT OSU!!!!!! YEA FOR CINDY! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)" ++

Friday, January 30, 2004


friend: "did thomas jefferson write the bill of rights?"
me: "i don't know. i'm from taiwan, remember?"

waiting for class with jim..
professor #1 (passing in hallway): "i can't believe they are letting these people be mentors."
mentor #1 (under their breath): "i can't believe they are letting you people be our professors."

from class with jim..
mentor #2: " path. no wait, divergent path. i used the wrong word."
professor #2:" di-virgin?"
mentor #3: "is that a command? die virgin!"

mentor #4: "..wait, i don't know what i'm talking about."
professor #2: "no, i'm rolling with this. believe me, if my face looks funny. don't worry about it." ++

Thursday, January 29, 2004


++ HELPED A GUY get his car out of our street tonight. our street is a trap. you think there's a spot there to park in. and there is. but then you can't get out, because of the ice. so the story isn't anything exciting or even remotely interesting actually. only that john and i helped push this guy out of the parking spot. the not so secret secret is to get your car turned as completely sideways as possible and let gravity to the rest. which means you have to keep turning and going forward and then turing the other way and going backward and then keep turning again and go forward. its ok to use the grass for added traction. this guy kept spinning his wheels and i swear they must be bald now. we finally pushed his car out and he asked if he should get our names and come back to thank us and we told him no. that instead, to thank us, he should stop to help the next person who needs help getting out of their parking spot. ++

Wednesday, January 28, 2004


++ FINALLY I CAN tell the secret that i've known for two weeks! samee is in town from england and i've known it and no one else here has known it and i haven't been able to talk to anyone about it and about yesterday it about killed me that i couldn't tell anyone! but finally i can tell everyone, well because everyone has seen him now and its no secret! ++

Monday, January 26, 2004


++ WALKING HOME AT 1AM was absolutely serene and surreal. we never get fog in cincinnati. and we definately never get fog in cincinnati with snow. double dose of fun. double dose of sereneness and surrealness. those are now words. it was quiet. no one was out on the roads. i walked down the middle of the street. the surrealness was serenessecity. now, also a new word. ++


++ IT'S A SNOW DAY!! no school! although now that i think about it, it doesn't mean there is any less work to do.. ++

Sunday, January 25, 2004


++ WE HAVE MEATHEADS who live below us. they aren't the normal meatheads who start drinking at 3 in the afternoon, on wednesdays, which is when the weekend starts. no, these meatheads actually do do something. they are all on the crew team and get up at 6am to go practice every morning and most of them have girlfriends. they are still meatheads though in that they are obnoxiously loud and play their music loud and are up at 3 and 4 in the morning.

last night one of them woke me up at 3.51am. one of them was having an argument with who i presume was his girlfriend. they were yelling at each other and at first i thought it john and kathrin yelling at each other outside in the family room, but then i thought, why would john be yelling at kathrin, then i thought even more clearly, why would john be up at 3.51am? so then the yelling moved and it was then that i realized that the yelling was actually coming from downstairs and that they had moved from their family room to the bedroom directly underneath mine. great, even better. now they're louder and still yelling and its 3.55am now. yelling yelling yelling. "no." "yes." "no. no. no. i'll walk you home." "no." "blah blah blah." (loudly). then they moved out to the stairwell of which is even more loud. door slams. "no." "ow." "no." shutup shutup shutup, seriously, it's 3.59am and i'm trying to sleep. i get up. pound on the door to get them to shutup. i don't think they heard me. i kind of felt bad though. i mean if you are having an argument with your girlfriend, the last thing you need is other people bothering you or telling you to shutup or pounding on the door. as if having to deal with a girl who is out of her mind isn't hard enough. plus its 4.03am. seriously, take it outside or shutup. door slams again. quiet. silence. ah, the silence. how nice. 4.16am. now i can't sleep. and no one is even yelling. 4.23am. finally. the deafening silence roars me back to sleep.

we got kicked in the pills tonight at soccer. 5-1. wasn't even close. just a game though. i should just chillout. stop being a meathead and yelling. seriously, its 8.10pm. people are trying to have fun playing soccer with friends (regardless of the score). ++

Saturday, January 24, 2004


++ REASON, SEASON, LIFETIME. so i'm not all into forwards, but this one as with the last one has seem to come at opportune times or at just the right time .. from a friend in england:

"To the special people in my life. Here it goes: People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have! a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.Thank you for being a part of my life. May God hold you in the palm of His hand and Angels watch over you."

Friday, January 23, 2004


except for me. try guessing what business used the place before the new place moved in. keep in mind, most of the time the same type or a similar type of business is going to move in to take advantage of equipment already there. (i.e. a restaurant will most likely replace a restaurant because of the kitchen, etc.)
that's it. nothing witty today. nothing of importance (really, is there any, ever?) nothing to report. nothing of significance. nothing. i've got nothing. and a lot of it. absolutely nothing.

oh wait, yeah i do. one of my friends is pursuing another friend. i don't think she likes him. actually i'm not even sure he likes her. they used to date. ok, not really. well kind of. they used to talk a lot, but they haven't had a real conversation in about 5-6 years now. she's been single her entire life. he hasn't. he's trying. i'm not quite sure where its gonna go.

oh yeah and jon is coming into town tomorrow! yay! that will be fun. exhausting i'm sure. but fun.

ok, now i got nothing. nothing witty. nothing of importance (really, is there any, ever?) nothing to report (except those last two things i wrote), nothing of significance (thats for sure), nothing. i've got nothing. and just a little bit of it. ++

Thursday, January 22, 2004


++ HOLY CRAP I can't get myself motivated to work on thesis. i start. i try. sometimes i think i'm even starting to fool myself into getting interested again, but then i come to my senses and realize i'm not interested. the other night i even enticed myself by telling me i could read another news article online after i read a page in a book. that lasted about one page. i've also tried enticing myself with a donut. damn, those things are addicting. other things: an IM conversation, a 'nap', coffee, tea, something to eat, "friends" episodes, something else to eat, another 'nap, more television, a computer game, bowling, drinking at 'the blast', running, binge eating, looking at pictures, editing a movie, writing on this stupid thing, printing out pictures, and updating my website. all for naught. i'm a sucker for distractions. (and an idiot, but thats another story. not for tonight.) ok, back to working on thesis.. ++

Tuesday, January 20, 2004


++ FROM A FRIEND'S away message in beavercreek.
"You know what cracks me up? Trojan condoms. If you think about it, a trojan horse was really full of all these little men and it was a trick to get them inside the fortress. Once inside, the horse BUSTS OPEN and all these little men come flowing out."

Monday, January 19, 2004


++ WE COOKED OUT in the snow today. ok, there wasn't actually snow on the ground, well a little bit, but just trace amounts of it. but it was snowing as i stood there in sub-freezing temperatures with no gloves on holding the spatula standing over the grill cooking jtm's and hotdogs and one organic buffalo burger and three veggie burgers all but one with melted kraft american cheese singles with no hat and a wool jacket on in jeans and a t-shirt with shawn by my side helping and sarah, who isn't even a mentor, running back and forth delivering the 'hot' cooked goods inside and up the stairs so everyone else could eat while we stood out there for an hour cooking, well mostly standing while it cooked, but making sure it didn't burn or overcook, which a few did anyway, trying to stay warm standing over the grill, but it wasn't even really warm, except right on the metal and instead we just got a lot of smoke in our face when we took the cover off and mentees coming and going eating and from what i hear not really talking while sitting in front of the television which had the volume on low for some reason which was playing 'the newlyweds' on mtv and then some people who weren't even mentors showed up, which was fine by me, but they came and ate as well and when shawn and i were done cooking, well like i said really just standing there making sure nothing burned or overcooked which i also said did happen, we came inside to eat the leftovers which everyone else was too full to eat and so all the sixth years were on one side not talking to anyone except for themselves and all the mentees were sitting on the couches on the other side of the room not talking to anyone even themselves, but full from the food that shawn and i cooked, but like i said, we didn't really cook it, just stood there and made sure nothing burned or overcooked which by now you know did happen, and so the two of us ate while everyone else was there, but it was good, real good, and juicy, no wait, not juicy, greasy, yes, greasy, but the kind of grease which tastes good but is still bad for you granted, but it tastes good so somehow that makes it ok i think and then everyone left after the show ended because then another show was starting and it just wasn't as 'good' or entertaining as 'the newlyweds' so everyone left then it was just a few of the sixth years sitting around watching re-run college basketball from last year and then they realized they had stuff to do as well, so they left and i went to go take a shower, oh and the shower was really hot and it felt good to wash the grill-out smoke which was on me off of me and then i dried myself off and got dressed. its not snowing anymore, but its still cold and four hours later the grill is still going, but there is no food on it. ++

Thursday, January 15, 2004


++ I NEED a break from life. it's becoming unbearable. ++

Wednesday, January 14, 2004


++ RECENT EMAIL EXCHANGES with a friend in seattle...

From: jay blackburn
Sent: Tuesday, December 30, 2003 10:34 PM
To: A friend in seattle
Subject: little help..
ah mr. friend in seattle..
hope all is well and santa is still real and the new year jumps over the mississippi river and hits you guys as well.
can you do me a favor? and since you are not answering, i'll ask anyway. can you tell me what the codes are for the timesheets as far as A1, A2, etc.? i need them in order to fill out the IDP stuff.
end of quarter thingy for school went well. or better than expected. celebrated by taking a trip out to vail, colorado for a few days of snowboarding. it's just how i left it. snowy. white. beautiful.
they tell me classes start in a week or so. i'm ready to be out. i'm ready for a change and to move on.
new year's plans?
thanks a lot.

A friend in seattle wrote:
Shipped in the birth givers for the holidays. Haven't been to work or touched a computer for two weeks...that is, until jay asked for yet another favor....jeez.
Here's the infotainment on ARC's labor codes. Enjoy.
A0 - general
A1 - pre-design
A2 - site analysis
A3 - schematic design
A4 - design development
A5 - contract documents
A6 - bid / negotiations
A7 - bitch slappin' (a.k.a. construction administration)
A8 - post construction
A9 - extra services
Good to hear you're sick of school and distancing yourself from work playing in the snow...oh wait, maybe that's a bad thing...don't remember...too old...'you crazy kids and your new fangled snow shoes!'...rant, rant, etc...must find prune juice...
thank you,
-a friend in seattle

From: jay blackburn
Sent: Saturday, January 03, 2004 10:16 AM
To: A friend in seattle
Subject: undress your stress.
thanks for all the help crackpot. have you started the whole IDP thing yet? its a serious ripple in the water. a bump in the road. a hard spot where i'm sitting. a headset with only one working earphone. an unsharpened pencil with no pencil sharpener. a glass with nothing in it. me working. two days before classes. still haven't done anything. starting to think bad. have watched quite a few movies. drank way too much recently. won a bunch of football games on the playstation 2. this email contains something of nothing of importance, except for maybe the first word. of which that is not even of importance.
btw, its 60 here and partly cloudy and i just went outside in shorts and short sleeves and rolled around in the grass like a hobbit. it was fun. have to remind myself next time though to put on clothes. mental note. check.

A friend in seattle wrote:
Sunny yes, but at the end of the day you are still in Ohio...this could be seen as an offensive comment on my part...or....since I've never been to Ohio (or any of its neighboring countries in Europe) my comment should not be taken seriously.
I did get my first 'snow day' ever last Tuesday when Seattle got hit with 10" of snow overnight. The city basically shutdown and demanded that i go and play in the snow...gotta give the people what they want. And since the West Seattle bridge was closed, AND my bus to downtown was canceled, AND since i don't have chains for my car tires (i think you
kids call them 'bling-bling'), AND since i didn't have power for over 24 hours...i think it was best i didn't attempt to go to work. Even took a picture...see attached.
Speaking of which, the Nati-streak has come to an end. The next intern will come from Kansas State (wherever the hell that is) since Karin is no longer pimping Ohio (and Amy is now pushing K-State). The only attractive person (besides exotic Asian male Mr. Blackburn, of course) has left ARC as well = Alix...which, if in Bellevue, would result in an office shutdown by the city due to excessive fuglyness. She felt overworked and went to another firm to design custom homes @ 30hrs/week.
My friends from Spokane are coming this weekend, got reservations for the revolving restaurant in the Space Needle...could be cool...or could give their 1.5 year old a permanent fear of heights...either way there will be French fries.
Got a Baja Fresh gift card for X-mas, which rekindled my faith in the lord...if i may quote King James...'and on the 8th day God said on to thee: let there be salsa verde (Jose 4:11).'
thank you,
-a friend in seattle

Tuesday, January 13, 2004


++ ON SATURDAY I DECIDED i wanted to go to washongton dc. i actually went back to dayton to pick up some soccer clothes. at 5 i called a friend in beavercreek and asked if she wanted to get coffee. she said give her half an hour, so i did. picked her up. went to books and co. had some truffles coffee, which is oh so delicious. i think i actually like that coffee more so than any other coffee. its so smooth. in the words of a roommate, scrumptulecent. and so we didn't talk except for when we were in the car going to and from the bookstore. but thats fine. it was actually nice just to hang out. we got coffee. i looked at books. she looked at books. oh right, this story isn't about drinking coffee with old high school friends, its about washington dc...

so i decided at 6 in the evening that i wanted to go to washington dc, so i called up another old old school friend who lives and works in columbus and told him i was coming through columbus and that i was going to dc and he could ride along if he wanted or not, but that he had the time it took me to get from dayton to columbus to decide. a little convincing. he called back in15 minutes, said, "let's roll." by 9 we were on the road. i called yet another old high school friend living in dc and told him he better f-ing be in dc tonight, because i'm rolling in at 4 in the morning and it would be nice to have a place to crash. fortunately for us (unfortunately for him) he was there.

i never knew 8 hours in a car could have so little conversation. well, actually there was conversation, just not much. but it wasn't awkward silence. i've known him long enough. i know the stupid stuff he used to do when he went through puberty. actually i knew him before he went through puberty. thats awkward enough. there's no need for it now.

"have you seen the holocaust museum?"
"do you like it?"
"yeah, its ok, actually when was it?"
"what, the holocaust? years ago."
"no, when was it built, jackass."
"no idea."

tick tock tick tock.
change drivers.
red bull.
wrong turn. back on track.
phonecall. "we're in the city."
"cool. see you in 5." click.
incoming phonecall, "did you just call?"
"yeah, i just talked to you for five minutes."
"haha. sorry, i was pretty much asleep."
"yeah? awake now?"
"yeah. so you in the city?"
"yup, still in the city."
"cool, see you in 5."

"you ever been here?"
"no. i've only lived here for 5 months."
"welcome to your city."

"hey, there are no pictures during service."
"i was taking a picture of the door."
"nice job jay, you got us kicked out of church."
"what? i was taking a picture of the door."

"holy shit its cold in here."
"hey waitress, do you guys have the heat on in here?"
"you know it would be warmer if we were standing outside with no jacket on than it is in here?"

Silence and Respect
"the United States Army. Guard of Arms. Tomb of the Unknown Soldiers. the ceremony you are about to winess is the CHanging of the Guards. In keeping with the dignity of this ceremony, it is requested that everyone remain silent and standing. Thank you."

"so you're dating up?"
"yeah, she's a league or two above me in salary."
"yeah, no shit. i feel like i should take my shoes off to walk down the hallway of this apartment complex."

"so what do you think of her?"
"she's definately very intelligent."
"yeah, she's really smart."
"yeah, thats what i gathered from talking to her for an hour. what the hell is wrong with her?"
"she's dating you?"

"hey, thanks for letting us crash at your place last night."
"tell him to tell his roommate that i think she's hot."
"tell your roommate that she's hot."
"no, tell him to tell her that i think she's hot."
"tell your roommate that he thinks she is hot."
"make sure she know's it from me."
"he says to make sure she knows its from him."
"oh, ok, i'll be sure to pass that note to her between 2nd and 3rd period on my way to study hall."
"he said he would pass the note to her between 2nd and 3rd period on his way to study hall."
"thanks, jackass."

tick tock. tick tock.

"you hungry?"
"not really."
"so where's the next exit."

"i vote no short-cut on the way back."
"i agree."
"i think all that turning made me sick."
"do i need to pull over."
"no, i'll give you enough warning."

"this place is still stuck in the civil war."
"yeah, except that the waitresses are all strippers."
"they had those in the civil war."

leftovers while driving with a rock star. no, the drink, not him.
thanks for tagging along. next time i'll give you two hours notice instead of one. ++

Saturday, January 10, 2004


++ SOMEONE I KNEW DIED. a friend's little sister. she was on I-70 coming back to ohio from colorado with her dad and they got into an accident. i don't know what happenned. i didn't even really know her that well. but it makes me very very sad. my memory of her is when i was coming back home from seattle. we stopped to eat at my favorite restaurant in the whole united states, the wynkoop brewery. my friend and his sister had just got back into town. we were just passing through on our way back to ohio and had only a few horus to catch up, grab a bite to eat and leave. they met us there. she ordered macaroni and cheese but didn't want the ham. and a salad. we had an appetizer and i paid for the dinner. she lived in the dorms and went to colorado state and was very talkative and easy going. everyone gave her their leftovers so she could take back with her, because she didn't like the dorm food. when we left i hugged my friend and her and told them we would see them again soon. we said goodbye and walked around the corner without a look back. her last impression on me is a gleaming smile full of energy which lit up the night.

"may the road rise to meet you.
may the wind be always at your back.
the sun shine down upon your face.
the rains fall softly upon your fields.
and until we meet again may God,
may God hold you in the palm of his hands. " ++

Friday, January 09, 2004


++ FOR EVERY ACTION, there are multiple consequences. not sure it helps. definately, put it on the line. the weird follows. changes inevitable. not necessarily for the better. less people to talk to now. i live. sometimes i learn. i know what i like though, thats for sure. i'm picky. not every one strikes me. only the select few. its too bad though. i'm sure in my next life we'll have meaningful conversations again. until then. have a good life.

so i did some work yesterday! technically its classified under "Programming-Technical-DVD" or some fancifal romanticized title like that. helped out a friend in Columbus. it was fun. not very hard. and they told me to send them an invoice. i don't know if that means i'm getting paid or not, HA! just talked with my friend who talked with his boss. apparantly what i asked for 'sounds fair' to him. ha! great! guess i owe my friend a dinner. here's to you. ++

Thursday, January 08, 2004


++ I'M EVEN MORE sore today than i was yesterday. it hurts to lift my arms past horizontal. no, actually it hurts to lift my arms at all.

yesterday i was playing basketball with that same friend and was setting a pick on him. he ran into me and blindly hit his head against my eyebrow. he has a harder head than i do. yes, both ways. but this time it was the literal sense of hard. he's fine. he saw stars, but i got a 3/4" gash extended from my right eyebrow hich bled ane bled and bled. its big enough where it peels back and shows, but not deep enough where it requires stitches. i could have gone to the hospital, but they would of maybe put a stitch or two in there and told me to take them out in a few weeks or they would of gave me a very expensive bandaid and charged me even more just to look at it. so i didn't go. its not bad. a little tape. some neosporin. scrunched up face. good as new. i'm like a car. ok, not really. more like a bicycle that got hit by a car. .. that was going 53 mph. .. backwards. .. made of steel and not one of those plastic cars. .. with the 3 fattest people you can think of with all their clothing riding in the car. .. but naked. ++

Wednesday, January 07, 2004


++ SO I LIFTED WEIGHTS yesterday .. for the first time in 6 years .. with a friend. its not a competition i know. but just for the record i lifted less than him everytime and even did less reps. so if it were a competition, holy wow he would of kicked me down and then kicked me while i was laying there on the ground and most likely kicked me as i was trying to get up. we lifted back and shoulders. before we were even finished i was sore. afterwards when we ran a mile i was still sore. after i got home and took a shower i was even mroe sore. i'm pretty sure my muscles are gonna fall off today. so yeah, its been 6 years since i last lifted and even then when i was lifting we never did back and shoulders. i never even knew i had muscles back there. on the flip side i have popeye forearms from climbing, which counts for absolutely squat when you are lifting for back and shoulders. sore? yes. glad you went? ironically enough, yes. glad you ran that mile after the lifting session? stupidly, yes. gonna do it again? not for at least another 6 years. ++

Monday, January 05, 2004


++ HELLO GOD. it's me again. i seem to be having a problem. you know what it is. we've talked quite a bit the past few nights. i know you work on your own schedule. i know answers usually don't come in the form of a letter. i know its as much about self-discovery and guidance as it is about anything else. i'm just sort of feeling a little lost here. any little help would work about now. because i just feel like all i'm doing is thinking and thinking and thinking and to be honest, it sure is filling up most of the room in my head and making it hard to do much else with clarity. i'm not trying to demand (that would be foolish of me anyway). i just need a little pick-me-up. a little sign. i need your wisdom. i hope i see it.

my grandmother gave me a calender over the new year.
it says, "Footprints. one night a man had a dream. he dreamed he was walking along a beach with the Lord. across the sky flashed scenes from his life. for each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him, and the other the Lord. when the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. he noticed many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. he also noticed that it happenned at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. this really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. but i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. i don't understand why when i needed you most you would leave me." the Lord replied, "my precious, precious child, i love you and never leave you. during your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

how does she always know..
as always. jay.

Hello God. back again. 8 hours later, but you know that. anyway, thank you. i think i see it a little more clearly now. the haze is not as thick. sometimes sleep does that. or maybe its time. or i don't know. maybe it's time+sleep+different state of mind? hmm.. anyway, thank you.
as always. jay.

even 8 hours later..
HE must know.
from a friend in england:
"If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God." ++

Sunday, January 04, 2004


++ FIRST DAY OF winter quarter today. whoopeedoo. what did i accomplish over break as far as thesis goes? holy crap. nothing. absolutely nothing. will this come back to bite me in the arse. yeah, probably.

on another note, what is body chemistry anyway? i know its how compatible two people are with each other physically, but what about it. such as is it necessary for a relationship? i would assume yes, but how important is it? very? not very? would you say your parents have good body chemistry? does that gross you out to even think about that. probably. is body chemistry more important than how you feel about someone? is there some sort of connection there? hmm..

oh yeah and it snowed today! yay! (but it was 65 degrees two days ago. boo!) ++

Saturday, January 03, 2004


++ 2003 REHASHED .. in a nutshell.
(things i remember .. whether important or not .. in no particular order.)

-got stuff stolen from me..twice. in seattle a laptop, digital camera, digital camcorder, some cases, memory card, and video. most disappointing was losing pictures which can't be replaced. then in cincinnati the cd player in the car was stolen. but then again thats happenned before and i was getting kind of sick of the one i had anyway, so i was kind of happy to see it gone. oh and the car window was busted out which was a pain in the butt to get fixed. actually this whole experience has been a big pain in rear, because you have to push all this paperwork around and then go through the trouble of talking to people and then replacing everything.

- seattle isn't all rain. there is a good 5-6 of the other months when it is actually all sunshine. and its beautiful there because every street you turn down you can see water at the end of the street. funny how that works.

-learned to go sea kayaking or flat water kayaking and its an abosloute blast. rowed 10 miles in a day, which doesn't seem like far especially when you can huck yourself in a car and travel to the same places in about 15 minutes, but holy crap that was far! and i didn't dunk once. brian did though and was wet for the entire day.

-took yet another studio with mark and was his partner (not life) again. and again i didn't kill him. and we actually produced a good project which was coherent (to me). and now for thesis our topics are similar and we have the same first chair. i can't get away from him even if i try. maybe its a sign. .. a sign that i should shoot him. and yet we're still friends and i even sometimes like him (not for life).

-went hiking on mount rainier in shorts and short sleeves and there was snow at the parking lot and snow up at panorama point where we turned around and we weren't cold the entire time. it was actually completely pleasant and beautiful. jeff, the arian with roots in ireland or scotland or someplace like that whose only protection from the sun is his splotchy freckles, decided not to wear sunscreen because, "i'll be ok." he missed work the next two days because he was redder than a cooked lobster.

-bought an expensive bike that i couldn't afford and had no way to bring it back from seattle. another smart move on my part, so then i bought a car rack which i definately couldn't afford so i lug home the metal, rubber, and grease which i had paid gobs of money for. i'm smart. i really am.

-drove to vail with heather, cornhole, golba, and suzie in two cars continuously. there was one rock between cincinnati and vail. only one rock. and i hit it. and we were 1.25 miles away from the last exit. and so the back right tire went flat. told you i'm smart. i really am. this was heather's christmas present to me. not the flat tire, but the trip to vail. and what a splendid trip it was. we all stayed in this condo which we will never be able to afford and skied for two days at the glorious ski resort of vail. suzie learned to snowboard. brad was the only one on skis. cornhole is actually better on a snowboard than he is on his own two feet walking. heather is better then she thinks she is and she skied deep powder for her first time. and i saw myself snowboard for the first time and i'm not very good, but i still remembered the resort and where to go. it was magnificent. no one got tickets driving both ways. i saw drew. it was an experience not to forget.

-on the trip back home from seattle, heather and i went the super duper long way home. south to portland, oregon to meet barb (my surrogate west coast portland mom) for dinner. a few hours at a rest stop somewhere in california and i fell asleep with the car door open and probably no less than 30 mosquitos filled the confines of the car. san francisco to meet no one because everyone had already left! so we played 'native' and did all the things we did just like it was another saturday afternoon in SF. a few cds at amoeba. lunch at crepe vine. indeed! san diego to visit aj and meet his gay ballet male dancer roommate whose connections landed us on a schooner for the entire day drinking beer, smoozing with rich folk, and basking in the setting afternoon sun. a bonfire on the beach with homemake sangria and we couldn't of asked for anything else from san diego. a perfect day. joshua tree national forest for a few days of unrequited rock climbing. we camped next to a huge rock, saw the moon rise faster than i've ever seen it rise, marvelled at the odd joshua trees, met a construction worker who was working there and staying in the same campground as us and went over to his campsite for some food and to talk. it was odd, but great conversation with some guy who i will most likely never meet again and if i do i won't recognize him. phoenix to visit cornhole. talieson west where i found out frank lloyd wright has invented air, water, the earth we stand on, and every major significant piece of architecture in the world. saw paulo soleri's Arcosanti which despite what they say is a cult in commune. here i found out that whatever flw didn't invent, paolo soleri did invent. mill street in tempe where we saw john (a UC grad who lived on my floor freshman year). ziggy's. from there cornhole packed up and left with us to antelope canyon where jess james guided us on a tour. incredible. not jess james, but the canyon. cornhole left us for aj and heather and i continued to the cliff dwellings at mesa verde. i can't believe people carved all that rock out and then built places to live there and then actually lived there! great sand dunes in colorado. arrived at night in pitch black, sleet, 25mph wind gusts, and 35 degrees. camped outside in a tent. woke up at 5am. first people to hike up the sand dunes. saw the sun rise while we were going up. sledded back down them. heather felt sick so we left for the garden of the gods in colorado springs. we did some more rock climbing there and i led an easy, but unforgettable 2 pitch trad lead up a run-out arete from which we used double ropes to rappel down from. had an audience. they clapped for me. weird. dinner in denver with drew and 20 hours driving down the now broken in and well-traveled i-70 back home. 5500 miles and no tickets. go jay.

-sailing on dave's sail boat every tuesday for duck dodge in union bay.

-helping mandi and joey find an apartment by going to check them all out. (they found one and its really nice and they like it!)

-living with 5 other people. kathleen and kathrin (who are from berlin, germany) who i had never met before. and john and adam who were the two people i got along with the least at the end of 2nd year. and nick who i didn't really know too well.

-jeff (my brother) turned 21 this year.

-took out a big honkin' loan. (that will be fun to repay. ha.)

-went to walt disney world again for the 4th time with a bunch of friends. we took a bus which took all of 15 hours to get there and back. i fell asleep on the bus before we even left wdw and woke up once to eat and then didn't wake up again til we got back. best nap ever.

-saw the northern lights for the first time in my life and they were mesmerizing.

-lobster feadst. 3 rules. 1. whatever you drink must come in the form of a bottle. 2. no eating utensils. only hands. 3. you muust get messy.

-saw manchester united play glascow celtics. man, they're good. "man u. sucks" was the best poster i saw.

-ride the ducks. right into the water. oh sweet ducks. ++

Friday, January 02, 2004


++ WORTH $20
friend #1: i told him i would give him $20 to go make out with you.
friend #2: $20. thats all i'm worth?
friend #1: yeah. $20. thats a lot of money for me. ++