HELLO GOD?

++ HELLO GOD. it's me again. i seem to be having a problem. you know what it is. we've talked quite a bit the past few nights. i know you work on your own schedule. i know answers usually don't come in the form of a letter. i know its as much about self-discovery and guidance as it is about anything else. i'm just sort of feeling a little lost here. any little help would work about now. because i just feel like all i'm doing is thinking and thinking and thinking and to be honest, it sure is filling up most of the room in my head and making it hard to do much else with clarity. i'm not trying to demand (that would be foolish of me anyway). i just need a little pick-me-up. a little sign. i need your wisdom. i hope i see it.

my grandmother gave me a calender over the new year.
it says, "Footprints. one night a man had a dream. he dreamed he was walking along a beach with the Lord. across the sky flashed scenes from his life. for each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him, and the other the Lord. when the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. he noticed many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. he also noticed that it happenned at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. this really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. but i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. i don't understand why when i needed you most you would leave me." the Lord replied, "my precious, precious child, i love you and never leave you. during your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

how does she always know..
as always. jay.

Hello God. back again. 8 hours later, but you know that. anyway, thank you. i think i see it a little more clearly now. the haze is not as thick. sometimes sleep does that. or maybe its time. or i don't know. maybe it's time+sleep+different state of mind? hmm.. anyway, thank you.
as always. jay.

even 8 hours later..
HE must know.
from a friend in england:
"If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God." ++