Wednesday, March 31, 2004


++ MY THROAT HURTS, so i can't type very much today. ..
uh. ok. whatever.
but seriously, my throat does hurt. it hurts to swallow. its possible i may be starting to get sick.
we have two new roommates who have moved into kathleen and kathrin's old rooms. they seem alright so far. john, is a 3rd year civil engineer, who is from bowling green and has a girlfriend there and he has just returned from a double section where he worked for ODOT. he's living in kathleen's room. tall guy. quiet and reserved. methodical. rumor has it he runs. brian is a senior english literature major who works at french hall. he has only one class left to take in order to graduate and he used to live in a one bedroom month to month lease down in the gaslight district. he says he doesn't have a girlfriend and was getting tired of living by himself, so he gave up his place to live with other people. he's also quiet. sterotypical english lit major. shaggy hair. always pauses before he answers, as if he's contemplating or analyzing what was just said to him or what he is going to say. both of them seem alright.
everyone keeps asking me what i'm going to do after i graduate..if i've gotten a job yet, where i'm going, etc. etc. .. don't know, no, and no idea. stop asking. unless you're offering me a job, in which case, work, yes, and wherever you are located. ++

Tuesday, March 30, 2004



"you will be unusually successful in business"
(ha. i gotta get out of this place and actually get a job, before i can do anything in business)

"your ability for accomplishment will follow with success."
(um. i'm still in school. still haven't accomplished completion of that yet.)

"beauty in its various forms appeals to you."
(i like peanuts in their shells. the salt tastes good.)

"you will be awarded some great honor."
(what, the honor of leaving my naive world and having to venture out into the real world? some great honor.)

"the only way to have a friend is to be one."
(no wonder i have few real friends.)

"now is the time to try something new"
(no shit. thats the first real 'fortune' i've received in a while.)

"everything will come your way."
(like money from the sky? could use a little bit of that right now. its pretty grey and overcast at the moment.)

"don't lose sight of what you want."
(mmm..shelled peanuts..)

"you will always be surrounded by true friends."
(you mean those ones where the only way to have a friend is to be one?)

"a financial investment will yield returns beyond your hopes."
(hopefully, this is talking about 19 years of formalized education.)

"executive ability is prominent in your make up."
(who said i was wearing any make-up. stupid fortune, thinks it can dress me.)

"remember to share good fortune as well as bad with your friends."
(i think i just did that.)

Monday, March 29, 2004


++ FIRST DAY BACK to school for the hopefully the last quarter of my final year. not particularly eventful. after 6 years of this, it's more or less the same old same old stuff. although we did have a meeting with my entire class and all the thesis professors. they gave us all the final submission dates and all the milestones and holy crap there is a lot to do still! final formal defense in a week and i still have to finish my final document..

spring break was uneventful which was nice. there was a span of four days where i didn't wake up before noon. i didn't go anywhere. i didn't do anything. well, i cleaned. and i watched basketball and played soccer. and it was great. well, i did go to toledo to visit jon, who i haven't hung out with in a very long time and it was the same old. which was nice. he told me about his wedding to be and what him and kiera had done and what still needed to be done and what i am suppossed to do. we went up to ann arbor and walked around the michigan campus and saw Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, written by Charlie Kaufman, who also wrote being john malkovich, adaptation, and confessions of a dangerous mind, among other movies. fantastic movie. would think after almost an entire month of not writing that i would have something to say. something witty. something. anything. no. i don't.

oh. i graduate in 73 days. thats worth something, right? hm.. yeah, nothing. ++

Monday, March 08, 2004


an away message from a real friend..
"When's the last time you talked to a friend? I mean a real friend? Can you think of it?"
the most ridiculous thing someone has said to me today:
"..well he had an architect take him under his wing and show him the ropes. and you know what, he was japanese!" ++

Sunday, March 07, 2004


++ US - 4 VS. US - 4 VS. THEM - 3
well 'they' actually scored 3. we actually scored 4 and the other half of us actually scored 4.
uh huh.

goal stars actually forfeited against us, so technically we won.
as team 'coach', i guess it falls on me to say something about our play. you guys probably know more about how to play now than i could ever tell you, so i'll make general comments instead, which will probably have no effect on the outcome of our games.

1. keep our positions.
2. pass more often. (this will prevent us from over exerting ourselves)
3. take more shots on goal. regardless of location or opportunity!
4. make a move. we need more pass and go! anyone who has the ball should have at least one option to pass.
5. go hard. go often. we have more than plenty of subs. one hard minute, then take a breather.
6. keep our positions. stay goalside (between the defender and our goal) when defending.
7. the most dangerous person is the person with the ball. if they are coming at us and you are the only defender left, don't run at the guy with the ball. just keep running back with them, keeping yourself between the ball and the goal. in other words you are 'containing'. don't make a stab at the ball. eventually someone else from our team will come back to help.
8. have fun. winning is only 99%. no, just kidding. have fun. if matt yells at you, yell back at him. no, just kidding on that too. but seriously, have fun.
9. i feel like i should have 10 things just to round out the list.
10. if you don't know, ask. someone, out of 19 of us should have an answer. (it may not be the correct answer, but someone will have an answer.) its like containing. eventually someone is gonna know the correct answer and will come to help.

Saturday, March 06, 2004


++ SHORTS DAYS HAPPEN when you don't get up til 2 in the afternoon. i came home last night around 3.00am and went straight to my room. laid down face down on my bed and told myself i need to get back up to check something. for half an hour i told myself i need to get up to go check 'it'. i don't know what 'it' was. and i never got up. i woke up still face down in my pillow and still in the same clothes from last night.
cincinnati beat memphis this afternoon for a share of the conference usa championship. 83-79. amazing game. they say there is a 4 way tie for first place and if someone else wins, depaul i think, then there will be a 5 way tie for first. ridiculous. cincinnati ended their regular season 21-6. not bad at all. next up, the conference usa tournament. then to the big dance! ++

Friday, March 05, 2004


++ FRIDAY IN DAYTON. well not the entire friday, but friday nights in dayton. matt, kathleen, kathrin, and i went to dayton on friday. first to play a game of soccer at the fairborn sportsplex with some old high school friends. it was re-union night. steve showed up, francis was there, cindy played, fracncis's fiancee - wendy, steve's girlfriend - beth, tom watched from above with his broken toe, jeff, jeff's girlfriend - sarah, dad, grandfather, and steve's parents were all there. the last time i had played soccer with steve was most likely 8th grade .. about 10 years ago! oh yeah, we got beat again. 8-2 i think.
matt is feebly trying to get himself thrown out of every indoor soccer place in ohio. he has only 3 left in the entire state which he is allowed to play in. (ok, this entire sentance is false.)
matt is also the only person i know who will talk smack and trash talk while playing on the losing team with only 30 seconds left in the game and losing by 6 points and sitting out on the sideline because he was too tired to stay in the game. (this entire sentance actually is true.)
after the game we all went to the southern belle. a friendly 'nice' dive bar in downtown dayton, next to the canal street tavern. it was a good time, getting beat in pool a whole bunch of times and catching up with old friends. they say its a waste of money to buy beer, because the mixed drinks are so stiff. i'll take their word and have a beer please.
francis and wendy teamed up in pool. in every game, francis would put all the balls in but couldn't finish the game. this was reserved for wendy, who would put the 8-ball in and effectively beat us every time.
gary has given up alcohol for lent. gary isn't catholic. he had two cokes on the rocks.
tom's mouth decided it was going to start talking again without consulting his brain. it seems to do that at every inopportune time it can.
hi matt. bye matt. see you in another 6 years!
beth says she talks so she can hear herself. i think she's trying to make up for steve being even quieter than cindy. cindy doesn't talk.

Thursday, March 04, 2004


++ EMOTIONAL STAGES (of a university of cincinnati architecture thesis critique).
1. Confusion and Agitation (that no one understands what you are trying to say).
2. Denial (that something a professor says may actually have some merit).
3. Anger and Depression (that what you are doing isn't right and doesn't actually matter).
4. Testing Phase (to see how far you can argue without complete failure of the past quarter of school).
5. Uneasy Acceptance (that no matter what you do, you're gonna fail).


Wednesday, March 03, 2004


++TOP TEN THINGS you can only do in america. provided to me from one of my roommates who is from Germany. and these things are all true. how sad.
1. Only in America......can a pizza get to your house faster than an ambulance.
2. Only in America......are there handicap parking places in front of a skating rink.
3. Only in drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.
4. Only in people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke.
5. Only in banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.
6. Only in we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.
7. Only in we use answering machines to screen calls and then have call waiting so we won't miss a call from someone we didn't want to talk to in the first place.
8. Only in we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.
9. Only in we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning 'bloodsucking creatures'.
10. Only in they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering.

Tuesday, March 02, 2004


++ TOP TEN REASONS why i am lame.
10. i'm 24 and still in school and everyone of my friends have graduated and have real jobs.
09. i don't know the dates of my parent's or my grandparents birthdays or anniversaries. and they have them every year.
08. the world is pissing me off right now and i don't care.
07. i hold grudges.
06. i know less about myself now than ever before. and my thesis is about "..'finding myself' amongst the chaos of this world."
05. i've had black, yellow, orange, and fire engine red hair.
04. i only go the blast once every blue moon and when i do, i don't talk to very many people.
03. it's 2.05am and i'm in studio .. still ..
02. it only took me 2 minutes to name all the things lame about me. just think if i thought about this for any length of time..
01. if you knew me, you'd know why.

Monday, March 01, 2004


++ RINGLING BROTHERS AND barnum and bailey circus.

Autoresponse from GTRiggins:
"The circus yesterday was hardly awe-inspiring. But there were a number of things that were just totally cool:
1) A man shot from a cannon.
2) That man was on fire.
3) Four, five, then six motorcycles (seis motocicletas, for all you espaƱoles) racing around in a structure which I believe was the Thunderdome from the second Mad Max movie.
4) Ten elephants. Because I am entertained by elephants in the same way a four year old is.
5) Jay Blackburn's House 'O Hotness.
6) An unnamed "friend" not buying me my ticket in advance. Rat bastard." ++