FINALLY I CAN TELL A SECRET!

++ FINALLY I CAN tell the secret that i've known for two weeks! samee is in town from england and i've known it and no one else here has known it and i haven't been able to talk to anyone about it and about yesterday it about killed me that i couldn't tell anyone! but finally i can tell everyone, well because everyone has seen him now and its no secret! ++

WALKING HOME AT 1AM

++ WALKING HOME AT 1AM was absolutely serene and surreal. we never get fog in cincinnati. and we definately never get fog in cincinnati with snow. double dose of fun. double dose of sereneness and surrealness. those are now words. it was quiet. no one was out on the roads. i walked down the middle of the street. the surrealness was serenessecity. now, also a new word. ++

SNOW DAY

++ IT'S A SNOW DAY!! no school! although now that i think about it, it doesn't mean there is any less work to do.. ++

YELLING MEATHEADS

++ WE HAVE MEATHEADS who live below us. they aren't the normal meatheads who start drinking at 3 in the afternoon, on wednesdays, which is when the weekend starts. no, these meatheads actually do do something. they are all on the crew team and get up at 6am to go practice every morning and most of them have girlfriends. they are still meatheads though in that they are obnoxiously loud and play their music loud and are up at 3 and 4 in the morning.

last night one of them woke me up at 3.51am. one of them was having an argument with who i presume was his girlfriend. they were yelling at each other and at first i thought it john and kathrin yelling at each other outside in the family room, but then i thought, why would john be yelling at kathrin, then i thought even more clearly, why would john be up at 3.51am? so then the yelling moved and it was then that i realized that the yelling was actually coming from downstairs and that they had moved from their family room to the bedroom directly underneath mine. great, even better. now they're louder and still yelling and its 3.55am now. yelling yelling yelling. "no." "yes." "no. no. no. i'll walk you home." "no." "blah blah blah." (loudly). then they moved out to the stairwell of which is even more loud. door slams. "no." "ow." "no." shutup shutup shutup, seriously, it's 3.59am and i'm trying to sleep. i get up. pound on the door to get them to shutup. i don't think they heard me. i kind of felt bad though. i mean if you are having an argument with your girlfriend, the last thing you need is other people bothering you or telling you to shutup or pounding on the door. as if having to deal with a girl who is out of her mind isn't hard enough. plus its 4.03am. seriously, take it outside or shutup. door slams again. quiet. silence. ah, the silence. how nice. 4.16am. now i can't sleep. and no one is even yelling. 4.23am. finally. the deafening silence roars me back to sleep.

we got kicked in the pills tonight at soccer. 5-1. wasn't even close. just a game though. i should just chillout. stop being a meathead and yelling. seriously, its 8.10pm. people are trying to have fun playing soccer with friends (regardless of the score). ++

REASON, SEASON, LIFETIME

++ REASON, SEASON, LIFETIME. so i'm not all into forwards, but this one as with the last one has seem to come at opportune times or at just the right time .. from a friend in england:

"To the special people in my life. Here it goes: People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have! a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.Thank you for being a part of my life. May God hold you in the palm of His hand and Angels watch over you."